Tuesday, February 8, 2011

How painful it was for me.

          My boyfriend cheated on me. I don't know his reasons. But it hurts me big time .
         
         I am miles away from him. We only keep in touch through phone. And sometimes through internet. We're in a LDR (long distance relationship) right now. I just found out yesterday all about him having an affair with a girl from our town. I talked to him last night and told him about it. He said it's nothing. My tears fell as i hear him utter his words. I was upset and so disappointed. I trusted him for 4 years and yet he doesn't even give a damn care! I don't know how to react by then. I was speechless. My brain was in outer space and my heart was in really deep pain. He tried to patch things up. He insisted. And because i love him so much, i said Yes! I wasn't sure though. But still i gave him a chance. I gave him my conditions, he said he's alright with it.  Then we mend it up. Morning came, I only cried. I was in bed for the whole day. I was not able to attend class session. I was numb, feels like i am freezing all over. I don't know why. Until this very moment, I am still waiting for his call or even just a text. but there's none. It's too painful. How can a person do this to me? How dare is that bastard to this to me? ..

          Then what's next? HEARTBREAK? /Sigh

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